Trilogy of Me

Success is not something that can be given to a person, but instead it has to be earned.  I have sacrificed countless hours studying and attempting to learn as much information as possible in order to be the best in my profession.  Only to discover that the real lesson was learned behind the scenes while I looking through the glass window known as my life from the outside.  I am 31 years old, a single parent of 5 children at times because my husband is active duty military, a full time student in the pursuit of my DNP as a nurse anesthetist, a full time nurse to help support my large family and pay for my schooling, a child of God in the pursuit of eternal life, but most importantly I am simply ME!  But I have to ask myself, "Who Am I?"

For quite some time I did not know the answer to that question.  I measured my self worth on the grades that I achieved and the knowledge that I possessed in relation to my profession.  I craved the approval of others and worked hard to make myself known in order to determine the status of my success.  The recognnition came and the happiness was wonderful, but the feelings of elation were short lived.  My goals were not about what would bring me joy, but instead I looked for what credentials would increase my status.  It was not until I realized that in order for me to know exactly who I am I must first know my worth.  But how do you learn who you are and the value of your being?  Is there a class to teach identity awareness or self worth?  ABSOLUTELY NOT!!  So how does one learn this?  

Well, that's the life lesson that we all have to learn on our own!  :-)